Waiting Well

It has been quite some time since I blogged.  Perhaps there are seasons in life that require so much of you that hunkering down in the moment is all you are able to do.  Perhaps holding on to hope and faith is easier to do at times when it is all internalized.  Regardless, I have felt the Lord nudging for quite some time about re-entering my blogging world.  Whether my words are only for an audience of One, or if they touch others I have never met outside of my tiny world, I must follow and be obedient. 

You may ask what I have been up to in my absence.  The answer is simple….waiting.   If you were to look at my life from the outside, you might never know.  I have been content.  I have been happy….or perhaps joyful is a more appropriate word.  But through all my contentment, I have had a deep longing and overwhelming expectancy of things that God has promised me I would see, but I haven’t seen evidence of up until this point.  I have been waiting.

I would love to report that I have been waiting well.  I would love to say that regardless of what I saw, felt, or heard, I remained steadfast every moment for the last few years.  I would love to say that I have seen what I am waiting for come to fruition.  But I am unable to say any of those things absolutely. 

I can say this…..I know what it is to wait.  I know what it is to wait well—to be faith-filled and expectant regardless of circumstances, knowing that God will come through in His perfect time and in His perfect way, according to His perfect plan.  I know what it is to understand that God works all things for our good, even when all things that we endure are not necessarily good.  I know what it’s like for God to use the honestly ugly and heart-wrenching things of our lives to help weave together a beautiful tapestry in our lives and in the lives of others.  (See Death of a Dream.)

On the flip side, I also know what it is to NOT wait well.  I know what it is to struggle to hold on in my own strength, and to fail miserably in my waiting well because of that.  There is a saying that is popular that goes like this: “God will not give you more that you can handle.”  This saying is so unfortunate!  A subtle twist makes it a lie….even worse, it actually promotes the idea that God gives you something expecting you to carry it.  On the contrary, Jesus said this:

“For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

Matthew 11:30 NLT

If you study commentaries, many discuss the yokes that Jesus would have been discussing.  When yoking an stronger ox to a weaker or less experienced ox, a yoke designed to place the brunt of the load upon the stronger one was used.  While we are waiting, we are to cast our cares on God. 

                   “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.”                                   I Peter 5:7 NLT

Casting, according to Merriam-Webster, is to throw or move something in a forceful way, or to send or direct something in the direction of someone or something.  If we throw something or direct it to someone else, we can’t keep our hands on it.  By simple definition, we can’t continue to hold on to it.  We can’t hold on to hope and worry at the same time.  By casting our care—our anxiety, our worry—onto God, we are able to fully grab on to hope.  We are able to then pray with expectancy and with hope.   We are then able to stay in peace because we are focused on our hope in Him.  

“You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you!” Isaiah 26:3 NLT

I understand that at times there is struggle.  Sometimes casting our care is easier than others.  But I also know when the stakes are high, and when the battle is long, casting our care can almost be a moment-by-moment thing on some days.   But I know that it is possible.   

I know that you feel at times that there is no way you can possibly wait another moment.  I know there will be moments when you will want to walk away and forget it all.  But I also know that when you fix your eyes on Christ, when you place your focus on Him, His Word, His promises, He will renew your strength.  He will give you the ability to endure past anything you ever thought possible. (See Fly Like an Eagle.)  His timing is not our timing, and His ways are not our ways.  But He is omniscient.  We are not.  He sees the beginning from the end.  We do not.  He knows how to weave all of the messy pieces of our lives together, and make something that is beautiful—something that we will be able to point to in the future as evidence of His unfailing love and grace in our lives; something that will be for His glory. 

We will wait.  Some days we will wait well.  Some days we will fail in our waiting well, but God is faithful to forgive.  He is faithful to empower us with His strength to continue on the journey.  One day we will see what those things for which we wait.  If you have been called to pray, to stand in the gap, there is a reason. 

“Write this letter to the angel of the church in Philadelphia.

This is the message from the one who is holy and true,
    the one who has the key of David.
What he opens, no one can close;
    and what he closes, no one can open:

“I know all the things you do, and I have opened a door for you that no one can close. You have little strength, yet you obeyed my word and did not deny me.” Revelation 3:7,8 NLT

Continue to hope against hope.  Continue to pray.  This is something I have been praying over my friend for the last 7 months.  I believe praying scripture is one of the most powerful things we can do.  Until you see the fullness of God’s promise come to pass, wait well, my friends.  

Psalm 126

A song for pilgrims ascending to Jerusalem.

 When the Lord brought back his exiles to Jerusalem,
    it was like a dream!
 We were filled with laughter,
    and we sang for joy.
And the other nations said,
    “What amazing things the Lord has done for them.”
Yes, the Lord has done amazing things for us!
    What joy!

Restore our fortunes, Lord,
    as streams renew the desert.
Those who plant in tears
    will harvest with shouts of joy.
They weep as they go to plant their seed,
    but they sing as they return with the harvest.